One of the most painful things in my life is that I can't sing.
Wait. I can sing. I don't have a vocal problem preventing me from opening my mouth and making some noise. But I sound awful. I'm slightly deaf in one ear and couldn't carry a tune if I had a bucket to put it in.
And that hurts.
I love music so much. My mom is a singer, and both my brothers have perfect pitch. They can pick up instruments and start plucking out tunes in a matter of minutes. My fiance can play by ear. I feel so left out, and it bothers me that I can't take part in something that moves me so much.
I used to play cornet in band. I took lessons for years and years. I quit the day I realized that I was playing the wrong sheet music and hadn't been able to tell the difference between my playing and what everyone else was playing. Nobody else noticed, either, because I sounded as bad as I usually did.
So. I love music. I love listening to music. And I do love singing along, although I usually do it only when there's nobody else around. But my inability to carry a tune also hurts me deeply. :(
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Date: 2006-01-04 03:34 pm (UTC)Wait. I can sing. I don't have a vocal problem preventing me from opening my mouth and making some noise. But I sound awful. I'm slightly deaf in one ear and couldn't carry a tune if I had a bucket to put it in.
And that hurts.
I love music so much. My mom is a singer, and both my brothers have perfect pitch. They can pick up instruments and start plucking out tunes in a matter of minutes. My fiance can play by ear. I feel so left out, and it bothers me that I can't take part in something that moves me so much.
I used to play cornet in band. I took lessons for years and years. I quit the day I realized that I was playing the wrong sheet music and hadn't been able to tell the difference between my playing and what everyone else was playing. Nobody else noticed, either, because I sounded as bad as I usually did.
So. I love music. I love listening to music. And I do love singing along, although I usually do it only when there's nobody else around. But my inability to carry a tune also hurts me deeply. :(